Heroin Rape

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An abused girl is influenced by a new force. She doesn't like it but she cannot pull away. This force? It is apathetic to the situation and it is ambiguous to whether or not the influence is aware of the impact. I am not happy with this work but I haven’t uploaded writing in a while.





I included bits and pieces of the changes this work went through. I wish I did this with all of my older works. I think I tried to do it on one other poem. Obviously many other drafts were written on paper or just over written in any one session but at the end of any session I just saved with a new date.

Stanza One
July 25th, 2013
Caress a cold cheek,
Softer where he struck-
years ago. Scream? Speak?
Fears now flow? Dream? Fuck?
A Command? Request?
Serious or Jest?
"Take your clothes off..."
...more anxiety.

August 4th, 2013
Caress a cold cheek,
Softer where he struck-
years ago. Bold, bleak,
fears to flow amuck.
Serious or Jest?
Try to trust undressed
I am addiction…
Wait, hesitation…





 
Stanza Two
July 25th, 2013
Miss a cheery place,
Kiss a teary face,
This... is beautiful
Let go. Lose control...
Fraught to flinch when
I show affection
My fault,

August 6th, 2013
Let go. Lose control...
Fraught to flinch when
I show affection:
My kiss brushes skin…

August 8th, 2013
Let go. Lose control...
So fraught to flinch when
shown sweet affection:
One kiss to brush skin…
Thrown?
Throne?
Tone?
Prone?

August 17th, 2013
things hide behind sin?
springs to life again.






Stanza Three
July 25th, 2013
Do not pull away,
I want you to stay.
You are just a slave
to our lust and crave
manipulation
Your boyfriend doesn’t know
…you cannot let go.

August 2nd, 2013
Do not pull away,
Sinister to stay,
You are just a slave
to our lust and crave
manipulation:
strings slide inside skin


August 7th, 2013
Do not pull away,
I can make you stay.
Rings tied tight again
Strings slide inside skin
You are just a slave

August 8th, 2013
(One kiss to brush skin)

Dismiss obsession.
Fail to pull away.
Jail concern and stay.
You are just a slave,

August 12nd, 2013
Dismiss obsession.
Fail to pull away,
scale (fears?) and stay
You are just a slave

August 21st, 2013
Recoil? Nervous cringe.
Flee! Spoil the syringe-
No? Apathetic.
You are just a slave,
to our lust and crave
comfort, addiction…
manipulation.

August 23st, 2013
Recoil? Nervous cringe.
Flee! Spoil the syringe!
Or… empty it, in vein.
You are just a slave,
to our lust and crave
comfort, addiction…
manipulation.

August 30th, 2013
Recoil? Nervous cringe.
Flee! Spoil the syringe!
Or… empty it, in vein.
Victim. Just a slave,
to grim lust and crave
Anguish, addiction.
obsession.

to grim lust and crave
Supplied/provide addiction.

September 12th, 2013
Victim. Just a slave,
to grim lust and crave
comfort, addiction…
manipulation.